We've come a long way, and I never anticipated that you would be the one. But well, things never turn out to be the way we plan them, and that's the funniest and the most wonderful part about life, you never know who amongst such a big crowd can be your person.
Let me start from the beginning. You came into my life as a blessing, and I really thank my stars that made me come across you.
Initially, when our bond was nascent, I was a shy little puppy wrapped within layers of anxiety, sadness, shyness, fear of being judged and betrayed. I'd thought that you'd leave, too, like everybody else did, when they got to know the real me. I was afraid to show myself to the world, I wasn't confident. I wasn't hopeful about anything. When I needed someone the most, you walked in my life and through thick and thin, you've stuck by, you've stayed. Even when I burst out crying about the most random thing possible, I always found your arms around me, consoling me, comforting me, and making me believe in myself. Even when I shouted and screamed at you to leave me alone, you were there, you always were there. Even when I treated you really shitty, you could've just walked away and searched for your own happiness, but you stayed by my side. Even when I got furious at you, though not your mistake, you didn't fight back. You listened to me. You made me feel home. You made me believe in myself. You made me. I am who I am because of you.
Now I know, they say right, 'you know it's true when home doesn't mean a place, but a person.'
You made me understand that I could be myself without the fear of being judged. You understood me in ways nobody else did. You gave me wings, and it is because of you that I can fly today. I owe myself to you. Even when you had your own problems to deal with, you chose to help me solve mine. Even when being with me meant altering your choices, you didn't abandon me. Even when you know you deserve a million times better, I still find you with me. And you must know what that means to me. Even when things could've fallen apart between us, you always initiated to sort things out, instead of ending what we had. You always believed in mending. You always were there. You always cared. You always stood by me.
Yet again, you.
Today, when I stand at this point of life, I wonder. How different would my life had been, had I not met you? Would I be any different, because yes, I am because you are. Nothing's different when you aren't there. I survive without you. But with you, I live. You made me live. Even when I wanted to die, you added meaning to my life. Even when I fell short of love, for myself and for you, you gave me your share and made me feel complete. Even when I wanted to run away from you, because I knew I hurt you, you always held me tight. Even when you could've walked away, you chose to walk with me. How do I even thank you? Your presence rejuvenates my life. Your essence adds a flavor. Your affection hovers around me even when you aren't around. You make me feel good about myself.
We still have our respective lives ahead. All these years you've spent on me, I promise to do the same for you. Even when I'm in darkness, I promise to lighten your world. Even when I'm done with the world, I promise to help you with everything you do. Even when I have demons of my own, I promise to help you fight yours. Even when I can't think straight, I'll always be there near you, sharing in everything you do. Because, you have done the same for me. You have been that tiny ray of hope in my world, that has gotten me through. You have been that person, I'd been craving all my life. And now that I have you, I promise to keep you, happy and satisfied. I promise I'd never let you go to bed sad. I promise to stay by your side.
And in the end, I promise to keep all my promises. Because, you are special.
The verses of a song seem fit here,
"You're my back bone, you're my cornerstone
You're my crutch when my legs stop moving
You're my headstart, you're my rugged heart
You're the pulse that I've always needed."
You. I love you.
Apurva... Loved your post!ReplyDelete
Keep it up...!
One day you'll be a great writer for sure :)
All the best!
Thank you so much, Ansh. This means so much to me. ^_^ReplyDelete
really nice post apurva i loved it....ReplyDelete
Thanks Maitry :)Delete
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